Music always was and still is one of the most important things to me. It gives me a home when I feel too anxious to be anywhere else. An escape from my head and the world at large. My journey with music is probably on the more unique side, getting into weird experimental Vocaloid :like the songs of the artist Kikuo: when I was around 12 years old. I think this was the moment that forever changed some parts of my brain chemistry. Scientists still aren’t too sure if that was what made me eat all that pasta.
Since then I have been chasing the high of finding new little sounds that hit my brain in just the right way to make me experience emotions that I have never felt before. Now I am at the point where a lot of the music I listen to is just sounds and screeches, but I wouldn’t like it any other way.
So like I said music is both a home and foreign place to me, but it’s also my biggest muse; My inspiration. For most of my pieces. I can instantly think of the song I listened to on loop while working on a certain drawing and what the song made me feel like. All the emotions I felt are deeply ingrained into the personality of this specific piece now. Even now I am listening to a song that strongly influences how I write this post and I feel like that is definitely noticeable in my writing style alone.
Though I also have to say that I do have a tendency to put songs down after I feel like I got everything from them, after they felt like they lost their unique flavour, after they felt too familiar. Which again also mirrors my experience with my own art and how I go about making art and always feeling like everything I do needs be weirder, more unique & extreme. And while I think most people would feel overwhelmed, it’s what keeps me going. Familiarity feels bland.
In 2025 I felt like that journey of always trying to find new songs pretty much came to an end with me finding a little (broken up) band called :Blackdresses: and one of their members :Ada Rook:. And now almost 8 months later I still feel like I am experiencing these songs for the first time.
The image on the left being :Unkillable Angel: by Ada Rook.
My favourite album.
I definitely also plan on making more posts in the future that will dive deeper into specific albums that mean especially much to me. This one I will end with a few recommendations :in no specific order: of my favourite musicians tho.
Ada Rook; Black Dresses; Jane Remover; Eartheater; 100 gecs; Femtanyl; Bjoerk; SOPHIE; Kikuo; Magdalena Bay; STOMACH BOOK; Oklou; Pilotredsky; KUMO 99; Metaroom
So after saying way too many confusing words, I will say that my biggest goal for this year is to finally get into music production, because it really does mean that much to me. My hope is to have an album out by the end of the year and I hope it will capture everything I love in music and art.
: Poltergeistheist coming this year :
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